I don’t know what to do anymore.
I have so many decisions to make right now. I wonder if my husband will really change or if it’s just a trick to get me to forgive him. Also, I’ve been thinking that what he and his family have told me is true. I nobody will ever want to be with me, I’ll be by myself for the rest of my life. Is it worth it? I’m so used to being with him. Is that why I’m having second thoughts about us separating? I’m so confused right now. I’m alson really scared about what will happen to me and my kids. I just want whats best for everybody. Being an adult is too hard sometimes. Tonight the kids are with my cousin because they had some cheerleading thing and tomarrow they are having a car wash. It’s good that they get to be around people that love being around them. They are such great kids. That’s probably why I worry so much. I don’t want to mess them up. I just have to pray that God will forgive my errors and know that I have the best of intentions. I do love my babies. Heck, I even love my husband, but I’m not sure if love is enough. I just wish things were easier. Like they say though, ‘Once things have hit rock bottom, there’s no place to go but up.’
Nikki Says:
I know exactly how you are feeling…my hubby and I are going through the same thing….He always says…I will start considering your feelings…then two weeks later…back to the old guy!!! very frustrating…i know!!
I have prayed and prayed…and this is one thing that God told me….
\I did not give your husband to you to meet YOUR needs….I gave you to him to meet HIS needs…when you humble yourself and meet his needs…then I , your God, will meet your needs!\